Mum's C-section post is incredibly raw: 'it was so uncomfortable and claustrophobic'

Los Angeles based mum-of-two, Angi Fletcher, never expected to deliver her latest addition by C-section.

Nonetheless, diagnosed with placenta previa, needs must, and Mum sacrificed her body for the sake of her new baby; but it wasn't plain sailing. 

Many people claim a C-section is the 'easy way out' for mums, not having to naturally deliver. 

 

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However, the ideology could not be further from the truth, with mums all over trying to break the stigma, speaking out on their journeys. 

Angi is one of many to allude to this too; in a post explaining her thoughts on how her birthing story would pan out, she was shocked at the reality of what a C-section really is. 

 

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"Little did I realise that a C-section was the exact opposite of what I thought, it took more strength that I didn't know I had, more brain power and emotional strength and thank God he had allowed experiences in my life to practise that."

"It took the strength of physical restraint and anti-anxiety breathing to get me through even just the spinal and being the control freak that I am it took every bit of emotional energy to relax and allow myself to be pinned onto a bed with my arms out by my side like I was being restrained on a cross."

 

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The true reality of a C-section can be overwhelming for expecting mums, and for anyone who thinks it is the 'easier' option, it's most likely time to think twice, as Angi reminds people of the battle which nobody talks about.

"It was so uncomfortable and claustrophobic that I was shaking uncontrollably and had to audibly tell myself that I am in going to be OK."

 

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Having the experience of a natural home birth with her first born son, Angi had originally thought that would be the way forward in her second pregnancy too, as she felt she had the strength to be in control. 

What she soon realised is that sometimes not being in control would take more than what she knew she had in her, handing over control to the medics. 

 

|| it's easy to post a flattering pic; so here's a different #reallife angle and a snippet of my birthstory • "I'm someone who likes to fight • to feel every emotion and fight through it to get the reward • the deep feeling of accomplishment, like the deep satisfying feeling of the "after cry" breath • or the full body collapse after a tough race or the ultimate release of an orgasm • that was my homebirth experience with oliver…I thought all of this but deep down I also wanted my new husband to see me as a warrior • a fighter • I wanted the romantic, primal, connection of hours of exhausting labor in his arms and him witnessing me giving birth with no drugs and worshiping the ground I walked on • yup my ego was definitely attached to home birthing • but little did I realize that a #csection was the exact opposite of what I thought • it took more strength that I didn't know I had, more brain power and emotional strength and thank God He had allowed experiences in my life to practice that • it took the strength of physical restraint and anti anxiety breathing to get me through even just the spinal • and being the control freak that I am it took every bit of emotional energy to relax and allow myself to be pinned onto a bed with my arms out by my side like I was being restrained on a cross • it was so uncomfortable and claustrophobic that I was shaking uncontrollably and had to audibly tell myself that I am in going to be ok • that's where my husband came in • he held my face and with his head right beside my head told me how proud of me he was, how great of a job I'm doing and how amazing I am afterwards he told me that seeing my strength of letting go and having to watch me literally sacrifice my body for the health of the baby was beyond powerful and he couldn't have been more proud of me • I never thought of it that way before • sometimes it's easier to be in control and dig deep and "feel" it all and it's harder to "let go" and trust that everything is ultimately going to be ok especially out of your control • it takes a different kind of strength and he hasn't seen that kind of emotional restraint strength in me…I felt as if when

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"Sometimes it's easier to be in control and dig deep and 'feel' it all and it's harder to 'let go' and trust that everything is ultimately going to be OK."

"Especially out of your control, it takes a different kind of strength."

 

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No matter what kind of birthing path mums undertake, it is never the easy option; it's a tough road bringing another life into this world. 

But mums being mums, we're magic.